I still have nights when I don't sleep well and I often have thoughts in my head that I just have to get up and write down. If I don't write them down there and then they have often gone by the morning or I don't remember them as I want to. The same thing happens sometimes when I am out running which is a bit trickier as I have to keep the thoughts in my head till I get home.
4th October running along by the river:
I lift my face to the sun and feel it's warmth The river flows over my feet and it is icy cold. I am held between light and warmth Cold and dark. I cannot move. ---------------------- 11th November early morning:
There are two mes
There is the me who each morning Along with her clothes Puts on her public face. The public me whose smile Just avoids the eyes. "How are you?" they say And the public me says "I'm fine" But the other me Whose private face Is sad and bewildered Is Crying. The other me who wants to say My son is dead, grieve with me. The other me who cannot understand Why? But the public me just says "I'm fine."
I have a notebook where I write down all these thoughts, it helps to have them in one place.
What a lovely surprise in the post this morning, jj sent me these gorgeous little sheep to add to my collection of anything "sheepish." In case you can't see they are book marks so will feel very much at home with my sheep books and mugs. It has helped me a lot to know that I have been in my fellow bloggers thoughts over the past three long months. Life here moves on slowly.
I have been under the weather for the past three weeks so have not managed any writing but I have typed up some previous work and to my surprise my word count is now up to 40000 words with more still to type. It has given me some encouragement and I hope to get back to my wip this week as I think I am finally on the mend. It's the OH's turn now and we all know what men are like when they are ill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you have ever seen "Open all Hours" with Ronnie Barker I am threatening him with Nurse Gladys Emmanuel if he stays in bed too long!!!!
We are still waiting for a start date for the Builder, are they the same the world over? The weather is sunny and warm most days so I hope to be back running and cycling this week.